I'm still totaly nervous about this guy. I think that he thinks I'm easy, even tho he knows I'm a virgin. I guess I'd stay away from him if were the creepy sort, but I don't feel paniky around him like I do around these other gangsta new york boys. I think he's pretending, and I guess I'm pretending too. I think I gave him the wrong impression about me, I just feel so flustered when we talk. I keep forgetting to ask about him when we talk, it's always on me. Like why I don't have a bf, Why I never had sex and all that. I get all muddle brained and say dumb shit. I hoope my schedual isn't phucked up next cycle cause if it is, I can't go see him on Utica anymore. But then again I wish it does get fucked up so I don't have to worry about talking to him. But then again I want to talk to him. I never even asked if he had a gf, but he must not, or else he wouldn't be talking to me. I called him on thursday, but I accidently hung up on him and I never called him back. OOPs!

<3I'm so nervous. So nervous that I destroyed my nails today. There's this boy that lives in My cuz's building and I've seen him from time to time. He ws always trying to talk to me (i.e get with me, flirt or what ver) but I always ignored him being the prissy shy girl that I was...Until monday. We were talking and he gave me his # Since I didn't want to give him mine. I was supposed to call him that night but I was way too scared to. Now it's Tuesday and I think he's kind of mad or something. He was like " Hey...So I didn't get no call last night" I just shruged and went in the building. That was yesterday. Now I'm afraid to see him today because I want to give him my number, finaly, so that he can call me instead. I never had to call a gut b4 and I'm soooooooo nervous. He's really cute too. 17...I love his voice. He's so sweeeeeeeeet. But anyway, I'm still scared. He kept asking if I was a virgin and askin if I didn't have a bf causee I was scared to have sex with them. I was like, whaaaaaaaat??! But he's alright I guess. ::shivers:: Well, I hope to run into him, but my mom's poppin over today. I don't want her to see me talking to this guy. She'd be all, " Since wggen did I say you can date??!" What ever, I hope to see him w/o his friends cause I see them all the time too, and they'd be like, "so, your gonna go with my boy? You like him?" Mabey I'll get lucky. Too bad my mom's giving me a ride, I walk with him. Oh yeah, his name is Daquan. EEEEEEE!!!! ::faints:: Bye all! ::muah:: <3